Allow my self to build up gradually, more and more, as I foster this
circle of life. My circle of life. Thoughts build up in my mind, swirling
around, collecting, gathering size, importance, and majesty, and are flushed
down my skull through my body and shoot from my arms to my fingertips, like
bolts of lightning, stunning these submissive keys and thrusting my mind
straight into the computer. The keys
know their job: they continue this circle, this way of life for me, and light
up the screen with what was, merely moments ago, only in my mind. These small, seemingly insignificant keys
have such power, to give my thoughts an escape from my mind. My mind that always says, “no, you cannot be
free, no you cannot persevere, and no, you cannot write – you will never
complete anything, you will be stuck as a dreamer for life.” But I am not merely a dreamer. I have resolved to make myself more, because
I know I am such! I am not a dreamer, but
a realist. These thoughts will be free –
I will take hold of them through this cycle, forcing them to power up and be
released through my body, into my arms, out my fingertips, and onto this
screen, where I will see them before me, and the cycle then begins. My own thoughts, my own creation, like a
newborn child, lies out in front of me, and can bare into my mind once again,
through my retinas and into my skull where they originated. But this time, things are much
different. This time these thoughts are
not merely thoughts; they are creations.
My mind cannot bind them any longer, they have built up speed and with a
running start as they leap and bound from this screen back into my mind, I feel
them swirling, gathering, growing inside my head, into greater things. Each thought grows stronger as it cycles
through my body, fingertips, and computer screen, and this momentum is what
drives me. Starting up is the hardest
part, but clearly, as is laid out in front of me now, the hardest part is
done. I have finally revved up these
cogs and am in full gear; I can do this, I can write, I will create.
* Originally written on September 11, 2012
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